well, i decided to create one of these. i have certain people on my facebook, myspace and twitter that read everything i post. i wanted a place to call my own to (electronically) release some thoughts, frustrations, anger, happiness, ideas, etc. a place where random people read, not people i see everyday.
so that's what this blogspot is for. i'll update as often as i can and as detailed as i can.
so as of today, things are really looking up for me. it's great because 2009 was such a shit year. i lost so much and spent so much of it sad and lonely. now i'm working constantly and i'm making good money. i'm comfortable and happy and i have room to move around financially. and the best part? i did it all on my own. i made this happen for myself. i had help staying afloat, of course, but all i have now, i achieved all on my own. i'm proud of me. and what's better, my mom's proud of me. there's nothing better than her being proud of me. i know i've done good when she's happy with how i'm doing and what i'm doing. twenty four years old and her approval still means the world to me.
i have four weddings to attend this year. FOUR! three of them from people i know, one is one of kevin's friends. so many people i know are getting married and/or having kids. it makes me jealous and impatient. i want kevin to be done with school. i wanna be engaged. i wanna get married. but i'm so grateful for what i have right now, right this second that i try to stop, breathe and remember that life is good the way it is. i'll have it all one day. and the best part is, i know exactly who i'm going to spend the rest of my life with. that's a great feeling.
as i lie here in my apartment alone, looking for my next apartment, i'm eternally grateful for the people in my life. they're there for a reason and i couldn't be happier. i think i've finally weeded out almost all of the negative in my life. i'm so glad. stress is not for me. negativity is not for me. i can't handle it. i need calm and positivity. i'm a serene person and i need serenity around me.
looking forward to the weekend ahead. much to do, much to enjoy.
considering getting a new comforter and bed sheets this weekend. very excited.
i'm not sure who is going to end up reading this. even if it's no one, i'm glad my words are out here.
take care, whoever you are.
appreciate your universe and the people in it. <3
jess
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